on my way

14 October 2006

Today is the 'official' last day of school for the TMS seniors. How ironic then, that I made this day so gloomy for myself.

I went to Temasek Junior College Open House. It is an ok place. It is kind of intimidating though. So I stayed for only half an hour. I went to Meridian Junior College after that. Suits me more. I saw 5A play street soccer with the JC2s. No points for guessing who won.

More importantly, getting a glimpse of my new life ahead, I realised, why have I been doing this? Will it make a difference to me when I move on? It hurts to just leave, like this, 4 years of... friendship? Was it really friendship? Have I made any friends in Temasek Secondary School? That does not matter, because it is the past. However, the damage is done. Some people say I have changed. I agree.

Perhaps, one day when time has healed all wounds (as they say), I will be that goofy smiling kid again.

I want to be that person again, but how can I? No one is willing to trust me anymore. Even though they were the ones who took it all away first...

12:00 am