Jun Ji

June 11
Boy/Man/Male/Not girl
Dance, expression and not impression
Temasek Polytechnic
Apparel Design & Merchandising

29 December 2006

Thanksgiving was awesome. So many people turned up. There were... 27 people who came? And the core members are only about half the number? Even Jiaming turned up and was more impacted than I would have expected. Alriiiight.

So I sang and shared my personal testimony (again). Gift exchange was fun. I got a big packet of Toblerones from Cassandra. It just happens that I like Toblerones. But even if I didn't receive any gift it would still have been a wonderful night.

By the time we went to the beach, it was 4AM. It was surreal, so sleepy and yet so comfortable despite all the mud and dampness. So comfortable...

See you all this weekend :]

Now Playing: Jay Chou - 龙卷风

6:35 pm

26 December 2006

Tonight's one of those nights, when I feel as if I'm just waiting. Waiting for something out of the ordinary. Waiting for tomorrow to come. Waiting for someone to call... Like the kind of scene you would find in those feel-good romantic comedies.

It's a comfortable feeling, in a way, because I know it'll be a win-win situation. The most exciting years just ahead, everything just falling into place... but I just wish I could have a pleasant surprise.

Now Playing: Rain feat. Tablo - I'm Coming

8:53 pm

The choreographing and teaching and performing has been called off. Whew. A little disappointed though. I think I will wake up with a sore throat.

Now Playing: Epik High - Paris

12:15 am

24 December 2006

My first challenge arrives so quickly; to choreograph, teach and dance 1 minute within 4 days.

I have a bunch of ideas but I'm too sleepy to piece them together. Maybe I should just lift from the classes wholesale.

HOW?

Now Playing: Rain feat. Lim Jeong Hee - Cassiopeia

7:50 pm

22 December 2006

Psalm 118: 24 - go read it.

A long overdue disclaimer: Just so you all know, my blog is neither my brain nor heart. You can't expect me to post all the ups and downs of my "inner life" everyday can you? That would freak people out. They would think I'm some emo dude who thinks too much, when in reality, I just ponder over matters 5% more than the average Joe. Maybe I come across as callous and shallow through my entries, but if you can assume things about me, surely you must be well-acquainted enough with me to look past the words on this blog.

BUT if you really need affirmation, I just shared my personal testimony at IKEA yesterday. I had wanted to do so since last week's cell group meeting. I feel that if I had not done so, the outing would be a lot less meaningful.

Which brings me to the title of my blog; Meaningful. There are things I do, things I say, they may seem pointless at first, but they are all part of a larger plan. If I were to give a warning to someone who has met me for the first time, it would be NOT to judge me at face value.

The name "blog" is derived from weblog; blogs are "logbooks" - NOT diaries. Not a record of a person's beliefs, personality nor philosophy and certainly not the medium through which one gives mass Bible study. Of course, we can take liberties (obviously I've done it before), considering this being the Internet, but sometimes we go overboard and displace what should rightfully be our personal diaries or notebooks... with blogs.

Please don't assume things about me based on my entries :]
I myself do not find blogs a reliable reflection of their authors.

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5:21 pm

Today was a good day. Shopping and dinner at IKEA. It had better be good. Hurhurhur... the IKEA restaurant was very nicely decorated. Such a nice place to hang out for Christmas. Should go there on a lazy sunny afternoon to drink tea. As for my shopping items, I shall reveal them this weekend. See you all then :]

12:51 am

21 December 2006

Some people have so much pride it makes me sick. Everyone has a certain amount of it, but this person is really over the top. A thinly veiled excuse of "God is good" when it so resembles self-worship. Please la, you think your stupid "experiences" with a bunch of people (who, according to your description, are just like you anyway) are enough to justify your behaviour? Or are you just giving excuses to draw attention to yourself, or to avoid anything that has to do with discipline?

If you dislike the idea of organisation so much, WHY LIVE IN SINGAPORE? Go and live in the African savannah, where you can run free with your stupid idea of "god", while slandering, cursing and inflating your ego to the size of our sun. God and His purpose for us is not for YOU to determine. You think your English is so good don't you? Well, ever heard of this word called "blasphemy"? Oh sorry, you probably haven't heard of antinomianism either, so it can't be helped that you don't.

You call us holier-than-thou when, in fact, you're the one practically raising yourself up to the same level as God with your lame self-crafted ideals.

Forget it. I don't feel like applying for that place anymore. I really respect Val for being able to put up with the ya-ya papayas that opt for that course. I feel like puking now, and I doubt it's the pizza that Jane ordered for us today.

1:20 am

Oh man, my phone broke yesterday. Short-circuited actually, due to the rain. It was nice walking in the rain though. Especially when this really cute neighbour of mine suddenly appears out of nowhere and offers me an umbrella. Her umbrella actually. So I shared it with her. She was pretty chatty too, considering the weather she was walking home in. Ah... rainy nights.

I got my pay today! Yeah! Jane ordered pizza. Jane rocks, although I dread her presence in the office due to the tideous work she gives me.

Band concert was pretty interesting. There were FOUR conductors altogether. I don't know if that's common in most orchestral concerts, but it seems like quite a lot of conductors to me. The band played well, although there were a handful of hairy moments (as far as my untrained ears can hear).

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I don't understand why some things don't happen. Is it God's way of telling me that I'm not there yet? Or is He telling me that I'm supposed to take another path? Or is it simply the result of human workings? My heart feels with a carnal hunger. I try to tell myself that I am still doing works for the kingdom, but I still feel inadequate. Is it dryness? Is it fleshliness? The answer lies in that leather-bound book... the hard part is extracting it from the hundreds of pages within, and hammering it into my head.

Now Playing: The Killers - Mr Brightside

12:42 am

18 December 2006

Before I actually blog about anything, I shall quote a verse from the Bible.

"He who denies Me before men, I will also deny before My Father."

I forgot the book and chapter, I'm not THAT good at memorising. And there may be a couple of mistakes, but you get the point. Don't act in denial when it comes to people. One of the things I dislike the most.

Ok! Today was a good day, because I had the bak chor mee with the most pork lard in history for lunch. There was so much of it, I seriously feared that John (yeah he ate it too) and I would die Death Note-style later in the day. But thankfully, today's lessons at O School were deliciously EXPLOSIVE. So I let all that lard EXPLODE inside my body and hopefully I am not at risk of a heart attack anymore. Come to think of it, it was so explosive my spectacles flew off at one point. Luckily no one noticed. Got to get a spectacle band... Oh! And I found that colour lock shampoo. Yay! Happy day.

Now Playing: Rain feat. Tablo & JYP - I'm Coming

9:51 pm

17 December 2006

Samuel is finally online after more than a year of waiting. Cassandra finally untied her hair. O School lessons are finally here again tomorrow.

Browsing the videos of E385 that Samuel uploaded on Youtube, I eventually found my way to another video of a school performance uploaded by another user. Looking back, the world I used to live in was so small and restricted. These people have the practice, maybe the talent, the opportunities, but they use it with so little energy and synergy.

I may seem like I'm full of air now, but I will surpass them. In the area of aesthetics, passion is so important. These kids think they're giving it 110% but in actuality they're still at 50-60% only. It's not their fault, but someone just needs to give them a firm push onto the next level. By firm, I mean FIRM. I'm glad I'm in an environment where everyone has passion bursting from the seams. I hope mine does too.

Now Playing: Jay Chou - 倒带 (Jolin cover)

8:50 pm

15 December 2006

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

Put true love in your hearts!
Melt all your bitterness and resentment!
Kiss someone who's not your own gender under the mistletoe!
Have some log cake and turkey!
Step on some pesky cockroaches!
Film a trailer on your handphone!
Suffocate while shopping at Orchard Road!
Sing Christmas carols at a HDB flat void deck!

This holiday was brought to you by Jesus Christ, Saviour of the world (the part that wants salvation anyway).
If you didn't know it, now you do. Thanks for your attention! Be nice!

Now Singing: ??? - Feliz Navidad

11:15 pm

13 December 2006

Sometimes I feel like slapping all the "C" people on this earth. Make others and themselves to miserable. PUI (I'm a C by the way, hahahaha). "C's" are the proudest, not the "D's". They always think so much, and come to a conclusion, but always refuse to act on it.

In the end, pride makes us no different from the image of a coke-sniffing gangster ah beng etc etc. But take away the pride and that coke-sniffing gangster ah beng becomes a person of greatness. So many examples. And yet they are ignored.

PRIDE SUCKS.

This entry is about people, not a single person. It probably applies to anybody who is human, including me.

Why can't people just tell the truth?
Is it because it reveals their hypocrisy?
When they accuse others of being hypocrites?

Why can't people submit?
Is it the feeling of "I have rights"...
Given to them by a thinking personality?
A sort of pride hiding under the name of "freedom"?

Why can't people step out of comfort?
Are they afraid of what they'll become?
Isn't that pride in their present selves?

Why can't people take a look at themselves,
Even though they say the same to others?
Why do we like to trample all over others?
When we say that we try to be nice by ourselves?

Why do we deny all the above?
We are blinded by ignorance and pride.
Why do we criticise others?
Is it to hide our own shortcomings?

Brother, your attitude during the O-levels.
You say I have it.
Yes, I have it.
But I'm doing something about it.
Did you, then?

I love it when people throw shit in my face.
No, I don't love the shit.
But I like the fact that...
I've disturbed them enough...
To make them dirty their own hands with it.
And sooner or later...
They will have to wash it off...
With the same kind of water...
I use to wash my shat-covered face.

Living water.

1:26 am

AHHH

I can't wait...
for...
the 20th...

12:54 am

11 December 2006

Wahhh... dance is so refreshing. John and I were talking about how we both couldn't imagine me popping around just less than a year ago. He still can't imagine. If you aren't from E385 you also probably can't imagine.

But the magic of dreams does wonders in our lives, though only if you let it. I'm so freaking busy compared to last time (holidays... sure...), but it sure feels good being busy doing meaningful things instead of sitting around at home doing nothing. That said, I have no idea what I'll be doing from January till April. Maybe I'll go work out 8 hours a day everyday or something, and end up in hospital on the 2nd day. Then I'll go into a coma and wake up just before school starts. COOL PLAN HUH!

Or I'll just bug Joshua to give me Bible study until my head explodes. Or go karaoke with Serene. Or make Cassandra teach me ballet (ok, I really can't imagine THAT).

Right now, my abs are hurting a lot, so I'm going to lie down and hopefully not fall asleep. IT'S TIME TO PRAY!

Now Playing: Delirious? - Rain Down

10:06 pm

08 December 2006

I miss you a lot. I miss talking to you. I miss teasing you. I miss calling you that nickname. I miss bugging you on long bus rides.

It's my fault for expecting so much from you at such an unearthly period. And it's my fault for letting my emotions get the better of me.

If you're reading this, then I'm glad. Because I know that I'm not forgotten. You don't know it, but I really miss you.

I don't know 'bout 'cha'll,
But I know 'bout us,
And uh, this the only way we know how to rock...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

12:23 am

04 December 2006

WOW! O School was an incredible experience. So fun... I was expecting an open class to be hard, but it's actually quite easy to follow. Maybe because the instructor, Daniel, is a billion times less scary and stern than Jenette from my previous classes. Hurhur... Oh yes, he's the winner of Overdrive, if credentials mean anything. That said, there are three things I must get across:

1. Do not do anything remotely explosive after a 3 hour long day at Sentosa.
2. Do not wear anything that betrays the fact that you're perspiring like crazy.
3. Do not sleep less than 5 hours if you're going to follow choreography the next day.

Woohoo... can't wait for next Monday. I met Chloe and Eunice from Parade of Schools too. AND RYAN SPOKE TO ME! WHOAAAA!!!

Now Playing: American Hi-Fi - Flavor of the Week

10:13 pm

03 December 2006

Today, I went shopping with E385. Actually, only Joan bought something. Hahaha... but I saw the W710i. Man, I still need to wait 17 days to get my pay. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2:07 am

02 December 2006

Why are people so hard to please? Sometimes I wish I could start all my relationships anew...

I'm thinking of those classes at O School. I wonder what they're like.

Now Playing: Jay Chou - 七里香

12:33 am