Jun Ji

June 11
Boy/Man/Male/Not girl
Dance, expression and not impression
Temasek Polytechnic
Apparel Design & Merchandising

30 March 2007

It's been a year since I moved to Tanah Merah. I will be moving back in a couple of months. There is something that I find hard to believe though; after so long, I still haven't went swimming in the pool downstairs. It's been there for me to use all this time but I've never used it. It's like how many people have opportunities to take, right under their noses, but they procrastinate and procrastinate until one day the opportunity is gone. Then they start regretting and all. Actually... I want to swim... but I can't find people to swim with me.

EDIT: The last sentence is meant to be taken at face value. It has no metaphorical value. I really, simply, without a doubt, no strings attached, no frills, just can't find swimming friends.

11:20 pm

My mind must be really warped. I remember I said that I should go for rehabilitation in the IMH several months ago. I guess it's underlying fear that causes me to act like I do. Fear again. This feels like a reversal of what was supposed to be.

12:13 pm

28 March 2007

MY GOSH. Those two crazy poppers/lockers apparently have a huge bunch of accolades for all their dancing. I can't believe we're up against this much this year. Wah feel like puking. Must go SMU must go SMU must go SMU. Must practice must practice must practice.

11:09 pm

Authority for victory is so good. So interesting. I was like gaping in awe at all the fascinating stuff. Best history lesson ever. And it's only lesson one. Lesson two is pretty much completely based on what happened between first verse and second verse. TOHU VA BOHU.

Here is a note to a friend: Watch yourself. I see you are edging slowly into elitism. I remember one pastor ever recounted this anecdote back in the Jurong West days: He had seen a drunkard outside his hotel, and for a moment pride caught him and he thought to himself "I'm glad I'm not like him". Then the Holy Spirit gave him a good shake and told him that...

The only difference between you and the people out there is Jesus Christ.

Your actions may be humble, but do your thoughts and words follow?

9:45 pm

Crap la. I knew there was something there. The bloody damned spirit of fear. I want to break Satan's neck now for creeping in. You little idiot. Luckily you're gonna burn in hell.

1:16 am

27 March 2007

Today is so scary. I felt something scary at the second floor of that tower at Sentosa. It wasn't the rats, because rats aren't as scary to me as millipedes, centipedes, caterpillars or worms. Maybe it was girlfriend's fear. Fear as a spiritual entity has tormented me (and probably every human being) every once in a while during certain periods in my life. This time it didn't even come to me directly but somehow manifested itself to me anyway. Don't ask me how. I just felt it - a bad feeling.

But fear is always temporary (or we would all go crazy). Love can be for eternity, otherwise generally lasts much longer. So I walked home feeling loved and happy (and oblivious to some happenings at Pasir Ris). It kind of reminds me of Love Hina. Despite all the crazy, potentially frightening stuff that happens, love and joy always prevails in the end (no matter how cheesy it looks or sounds). Oooh. I want to re-read Love Hina again.

Now Playing: Yui Horie & Yuuji Ueda - Be For You, Be For Me

1:40 am

25 March 2007

Wah... Changi beach is the best place to go stargazing in the whole of Singapore, I think. But it's really good. Just not so good on Sundays.

Today, one sentence took a heavy burden off my shoulders. I don't know who it's from, because I read it from a book (I pointed that sentence out to you, missy) and I didn't check who the author was.

I would like to go stargazing with sushi again.

Now Playing: Susan Bell - My Only Star

10:41 pm

24 March 2007

I get the itching feeling I will get hit by diabetes soon. I received a substantial bag of gummies today from a primary school girl, who had previously given me a box full of all kinds of sweet stuff (apart from sausages and cherry tomatoes). But you know... I don't mind getting diabetes this way. Hahahahahahahaha... The previous week has been the single most joyful and wonderful week in my life, I feel.

Aiya. Fusion Reaction (Project Fusion for now) is such a talented group. Hector is a b-boy in the making. I'm proud to be the leader.

12:01 am

22 March 2007

Let me tell you a story.

About a week ago, I stayed over at James' house. He let me use his wax. It's called Gatsby Power Fiber Type Styling Wax. I shall just call it Power Fiber. It is very good to use. Unfortunately one bottle costs $8. But God is good, and today, we went to Bedok interchange's Guardian. Lo and behold, Power Fiber for $4.20, as stated on the big, red-framed OFFER! price tag. Our jaws hit the floor immediately.

That's not all. I went to the cashier. I looked in my wallet for $0.20. I only had a 5-cent coin. Darn. But LO AND BEHOLD, the register read "$3.95", so I ended up paying less than half the usual price for a bottle of Power Fiber.

Even if it's just styling wax... God blesses people.

EDIT: My new medium term goal is to become a bolster.

5:24 pm

I have a new favourite movie. It's called Stomp The Yard. It's about stepping competitions in university. "Stepping" is something like tap dancing, except more scary and with clapping. I am inspired to learn a forearm pike. It looks so cool. In the mean time I shall be content with my extremely bad windmills and slightly better swipes.

I noticed that my sister is wearing leggings today. Seems like everyone and her mother is wearing leggings now. But Valerie has got to be the leader in legging fashion. I like her electric blue ones. Must have broken some necks when she stepped into the MRT.

Suddenly there are so many things to eat at home. Cadbury's Black Forest chocolate slab, white Toblerone, cherry tomatoes, sausages, Honey Stars and more. Looks like I'll gain some weight over the next couple of weeks.

12:17 am

19 March 2007

I was bitten by all sorts of critters today.

10:13 pm

Maybe I should just become Squall.

2:29 am

18 March 2007

I feel scared. I feel like the path ahead is so uncertain. But you know, great things follow uncertainty and risk. So I want to take the risk.

Talk cry shout
scream beat slap
hug bite lean
kiss kick punch
smile :]

Suddenly the sadness took my soul,
Away like the rain on a perfect day...
But let me go and live this life...

11:14 pm

17 March 2007

Right now, I feel like I can go to SMU's School of Economics and Social Science and start dancing by myself even if PF doesn't make it to the finals. Maybe I feel rested after all the dancing and sleeping late for the past few days. And the pressure from auditioning is off.

I sure hope we make it to the finals. Even if the competition is tough, who needs to win? All I want is to express myself.

Now Playing: Show Luo & Koda Kumi - Twinkle

12:34 am

15 March 2007

I want words of affirmation.

3:44 am

I've been dancing for 6 hours on average for the past 5 days. My forearms and hamstrings are aching. There's an abrasion on my bruised left elbow. My left knee is also bruised. I'm getting pretty sick of listening to 精舞门.

But that's a small price to pay for learning the windmill, mastering the applejax and getting 95 seconds worth of choreography for everyone to learn. And tomorrow's the audition. If we get past, I'm gonna dance. For real. On stage. Woohoo.

For the next few days though, I shall catch up with my social life and listen to something other than 精舞门.

EDIT: Oh yeah, I dance until six pack come out. Cool huh.

Now Playing: 曹格 & 卓文萱 - 梁山伯与茱丽叶

1:11 am

13 March 2007

I know this is late but...

I missed mass communication by 1 point! But it's ok. I'll probably have a more flexible schedule in ADM (as flexible as a project-orientated course can be). And TP is nearer to my house. And TP's dance is good (so I heard). And TP has Temasek in the name. And TP is near Bedok Reservoir. I can go there and have a free drink anytime I want.


And this is even later, but I just thought I should bump up this post from a few weeks ago...

"She was there for me. She was there to hold my hand."

"Made you feel safe and secure?"

"Sure..."

"But she left. Just disappeared."
"I'm afraid... afraid of having that feeling of comfort taken away."

"You were afraid of losing us?"
"Was that why you kept your distance?"
"You missed out on all the good things in life..."
"You missed out on so much..."

"...Maybe..."

"Definitely."

3:24 am

12 March 2007

"Wah lao"

It is the most controversial word I use nowadays. People tell me it's akin to calling God's name in vain. I don't know though. I've never associated "wah lao" with God. I associate it with "father" or "uncle" as in "lao ah pek". So I find it kind of silly to deprive myself of this expressive exclamation. Hope you all understand.

1:18 am

11 March 2007

Hector do locking look like skeleton.
I do six-step until become 8-, 9-, 10-step.
Siying got powerful movement.
Valerie reminds me of Xiao En (who doesn't remember me).
Jolina very the creative.
Huifen is a necessity. And she very nice.
Chloe is patient. We gonna chiong her.
Wan Hong... WHERE THE HECK IS WAN HONG?!?!

If we don't make it past auditions, then this post go to waste. If we do... this is a precursor to big big things. Anyway, Ryan will be my instructor by next year (I hope), so hopefully if nothing materialises this year, got more hope next year. In the mean time, must brainwash myself with this song.

预备起行头全部要带齐点名
准备跟我上街去游行
Body 今天要证明
什么舞通通都搞得定
跌烂你眼镜

小老弟年轻耍酷那一丁点本领
洗耳恭听快卯起来学艺
大发善心收徒弟
想要学习皮要绷
要跟我跟紧

I wanna know 你行不行
You gonna know 别怀疑你自己的本领
You gonna know 我是冠军
You gonna know... we got to show
我有一条特别了不起的神经
越跳越带劲
无师自通任督二脉畅通无比
十八般舞艺

拎拎听说你想要报名考虑
有没有那根筋我看一眼就搞定
凡事都要照规定
精舞门里什么都不浪得虚名

不能乱吃冰淇淋蒙眼睛
对待所有的敌人都尊敬
大半夜上床戴耳机
节奏当催眠的声音
作梦都不停

By the way. For now, we're using Janet Jackson's Get It Out Me for auditions. It kind of sends chills down my spine, I think because it's a Janet Jackson number. Here are some of my songs though (didn't get to show off my less-heard-of collection):
m-flo loves LISA - Tripod Baby
m-flo loves Crystal Kay - Do U Like It?
Epik High - Paris
Epik High - Fly
Rain - Still Believe
Se7en - Passion (used by Joyous Perfection last year)
吴克群 - 男佣
罗志祥 - 精舞门 (the song above. MV got COOL LOCKING MOVES.)
罗志祥 - 幸福猎人
Prodigy - Breathe
Prodigy - Firestarter
Prodigy - Voodoo People
Hiroki Wada - Mystic Eyes
Daniel Bedingfield - James Dean [I Wanna Know] (Eng. version of 精舞门)
(a whole bunch of m.o.v.e songs here)
Gloria Estefan - Oye! (?)
Gloria Estefan - Heaven's What I Feel
Teddybears Sthlm & Mad Cobra - Cobrastyle (used in some TMS ACES day thing)
Tashannie - Don't Bother Me

m-flo collaborations are the best. I shall convince my group to use. Hehehe.

1:45 am

09 March 2007

People that have problems with expectation management require the stamp of approval from me, which is found on my ring, which is found on my clenched fist which is supposed to punch them in the face. It's fine if you studied hard and couldn't get cream-of-the-crop results, and didn't get posted to the school or course you wanted. But if you were obviously slacking around before exams or if you're disappointed because you got 7 points instead of 6... you really do need my stamp of approval upon your forehead.

Unsatisfied 7-, 8-, 9-pointers, how do you think those people who aren't as gifted academically as you feel when you spout your complaints about how you OH MY GOSH COMPLETELY MISSED 9A1S BY SO MUCH? You may not notice it, but your ego has gotten larger than your forehead and assessment book collection combined. Stow it and enjoy your time in Singapore's top junior colleges, even if it isn't RJC or Hwa Chong. As if being in RJC or Hwa Chong will really affect your chances of gaining that scholarship from some big name university.

And for the former example... I won't be so harsh. But you should know that, most of the time, life doesn't reward laziness. Maybe you've managed to convince yourself you've been studying a lot before the exams. In actuality, perhaps you were having a gossip session with your friends and enjoying a cuppa while your books lay open and neglected on the table in front of you. Stop crying. It's all in the past.

By the way, I was kidding about my stamp of approval. I just wanted to get my message across, especially to those obnoxious hyper-perfectionists (perfectionists doesn't even cut it). That's why my paragraph to them is kind of... heart-stabbing.

If you think I'm talking about you, and you're asking yourself, "What is this guy on? What did I do to offend him?", you're probably not one of those people. The accused will be hit by my message so hard they will collapse and require first aid before their brains can come up with a response.

I'm exaggerating, of course.

Now Playing: Gary Cao Ge - 3_7_20_1

12:49 am

08 March 2007

What is the difference between a poem and a song? A song has music to accompany words. Thus, there is a visceral quality found in songs that is absent in poetry.

Why am I telling you this? Don't judge the song by the lyrics. Of course lyrics do make up some part of the song. But if the music doesn't make you feel anything... what's the use? Might as well read the Bible or some romantic novels.

3:21 pm

04 March 2007

I've been sleeping for a long time... it was surreal when I woke up. The house was silent but for the ambient noises coming from downstairs. The wind was blowing, a very cool wind. The sky is incredibly clear. The sun is casting its brilliance on the world all around. In these moments, I can just fly away.

6:24 pm

Did you really mean what you said? It doesn't seem like you did. It felt like I was ditched in favour of people who seemed more interesting to you. Maybe I was right. Maybe my expectations of people should be kept to a minimum. Maybe you're just like those people before you whom I thought I would have some value to. Or maybe I'm just overreacting.

Why do people depend on each other?

7:39 am

03 March 2007

Posting results are just 3 days away. I can't wait. Then after that I can't wait for school to start. Then after that I can't wait for school to end. And after that I can't wait for the monsoon season to end. After that, I can't wait to go to Sentosa and run around in the sun for one whole day. Then after that I can't wait for Emerge. Which reminds me, I can't wait to know if we'll have a proper dance crew by the time we need to audition.

Under the sea,
Under the sea
你的辽阔里
你的蔚蓝里
充满神秘
每一个幸福的海域
都有一颗海洋之心

Under the sea,
Under the sea
Nobody beat us, fry us
And eat us in fricassee
We what the land folks loves to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We got no troubles, like is the bubbles

2:38 am

02 March 2007

We people should take life seriously. But not too seriously. Or we will screw everything up, especially our foreheads when they get all wrinkly and pitted. We don't always have to think so deeply, or we will get lost in our thoughts. We don't have to show that we aren't superficial people, because that's superficial in itself. We should just be people, a little like those that you see walking on the street listening to happy pop music.

123456
秀出猎人电流
给你快乐我最拿手
Come on, let's go
123456
不想欲擒故纵
幸福直接命中
Come on, let's go

12:26 am