on my way

18 November 2006

Betrayed, again and again and again. Sometimes I feel like giving up on people. If you don't want to spend time with me, then just say it, don't give some stupid excuse like "Sorry JJ, I'm not in the mood." WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR STUPID PMS EVERY OTHER DAY, DID I EVER COMPLAIN? ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WAS DURING THE TIME WHEN THOSE "FRIENDS" OF MINE KEEP STABBING AT ME?

NO! I SAT THERE AND LISTENED TO YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR "TROUBLES". AT LEAST YOU CAN GO TO SAJC, SO SHUT UP AND STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW "HORRID" YOUR LIFE IS. DO YOU EVEN DESERVE A GIRL WITH THAT KIND OF PATIENCE?

On the other hand, I feel guilty for emotionally threatening my parents the way I did. But why can't they just admit the reason they're being so uptight? Sigh... Oh, why am I even posting this. I told this story before, and the listener wasn't even listening. People like that... if you don't do anything to help the situation it's fine, but at least you can lend a ear. Oh well, seems like a lot of people from that CCA are like that. And they flock together so that they can overwhelm with whorish force anyone who dares to say anything about them.

I just have so much to say... I don't know if anyone listens. But because I am not a part of the group, I'm pretty much wrong in every issue. I saw a poster in school the other day, and it read "courage is doing what is right even if you're the only one doing it". I hope I'm courageous.

Oh yeah, I'm writing informally now, so it reads more naturally.

11:01 pm