on my way

18 November 2006

That last post was so angry... I can't believe I'm still like this. I shall use this post to hide that one. I can't encourage the devil.

Sigh... seems like now that A&B has started, spiritual attacks are hitting harder. I've never acted like this towards my parents, especially not my humble and meek (I'm not being sarcastic) father. Sometimes I ask myself why they bother. Is it the male or female child stigma? I thought that sort of conservative crap was gone long ago. My sister is so much more successful than me. She can concentrate in her studies better, is a Victorian, and is destined for a place in NUS next year. I'm just a inattentive guy who actually WANTS to go to a polytechnic and aspires to some craaaazy things.

Of course I intend to be as good as her in other ways, but for now I haven't got anything under my belt... so I don't know why I act like a damned prince. On the other hand, I'm so worried. Does my situation mean I have to wait until next year when school starts before I can start picking up dance again? I hope I can find some work to do... the money is really necessary.

Oh yeah, I'm typing informally now (as in speech, but of course with proper punctuation), so all my entries should read more naturally.

11:32 pm