on my way

09 December 2007

In the recent weeks leading up to today, I've had a lot of time away from the turmoil and conflict and strife to think, relax and recuperate. I thought about everything from the meaning of life to the origin of the universe to the kitchen sink to how to get my cat to fetch my slippers.

Although I let my thoughts run all over the place, I didn't get anything out of it... except the renewed will to stay happy and joyful. In all honesty, I found out things which made me sad today. It made me feel like others will cover up any effort and creative energy (to put it nicely) I spent, in favour of themselves or their clique members. Then I realised it is not my place to complain, because I don't need to covet opportunities in such a way to succeed.

It doesn't matter because I started learning on the streets, and though I've had formal training since, I still learn on the streets and if need be, I will continue to do my stuff on the streets... ...until the opportune moment to seize, to take hold of my destiny.

Love involves kindness. Share it, whether it be just plain simple love, love for food, love for dance... maybe that's why locking appealed so much to me. It's just like in Junwei's MSN handle... "Locking is a social dance, not a solo dance." I love pointing at people and getting them out of their comfort zones. No, I'm not trying to sabo them... it just isn't as fun dancing by yourself or within the same old group all the time.

Perhaps we need to break free of the mindset that we must all outdo each other technically, expressively or creatively. Perhaps we need to stop looking at our talent and using it to improve only ourselves. Perhaps we should help each other as peers, not as superiors and subordinates (unless it is warranted... search your soul for the answer eh), to go to the next level. Perhaps we should realise we could all learn from each other in different aspects. Perhaps I ought to just shut up and go sleep now because I'm really tired from lack of sleep and KH's class, and I'm typing all this based on the impression I have of the situation which could be totally different hahahahahahahaha.

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